Why do I almost always feel such an annoying, wobbly dread in the pit of my stomach the night before I have to go to work? I don’t hate my job, so although I don’t really like it either, at worst it should be an “ugh, work”. But instead it’s more like “Fuck, no, what if I don’t sleep well tonight and I feel super tired at work? What if my back doesn’t feel better tomorrow and I have to do my whole shift in pain?”
This is not a good thing. Retail is really not for me. Someone find me a job where I can sit down for the majority of the day, please?
Might have caught whatever stupid sickness Rowan has, because I’m feeling like crap right now. Sucks more due to the fact that I have to go to work tomorrow. Blegh.
Downside of melatonin: the heat keeping me conscious for ages even though my body wants to be asleep, but then still waking up early because of the daylight “alarm”. So tired as a result.
Dad loaned me money to buy bathers, and I even managed to find a nice set at work - so, 40% staff discount!
Apart from the internet issues I’ve been having recently (worse than normal; I can’t get online on anything other than my phone unless I’m some place with wifi. So to anyone who I am meant to be messaging or emailing etc, sorry - I can’t currently even access the messages I’m needing to reply to right now - it’s crazy making to be honest), today wasn’t too bad!
Even my mood was more blah than depressed. Not amazing, but better than it’s been for a few days.
Also. GMM. Today’s wheel ending!? Pete. Pete? Pete?!? Wow.
It’s Rowan’s birthday today, but I couldn’t get him a present because I’m broke due to PayPal being a piece of shit and having over $250 of my money “on hold” with no explanation as to why.
For the same reason, I also couldn’t buy myself bathers. So I can’t go swimming tomorrow, which is putting off my “let’s get fit and lose some weight by doing the only exercise that doesn’t at all hurt my back” plan. Which is fucking annoying.
Took some melatonin last night to see if it’d help me sleep better, and it knocked me out so well I forgot to make my post here for yesterday.
On the plus side, sleep.
"Monster mash!”; Neil definitely has a knack for the one-liner games, though I wonder if I’ll remember what this quote means in several months when I read back over all my posts on this blog? Haha.
And another sound effects song in Sing About It; between that one and Nick’s song, there were visible tears of laughter being shed. Shane is so on the pulse with his MCing, maybe even as good as Tegan? A bee keeper whose hobby is bee keeping… what a delightful idiot XD
And I continue to wonder how and why Nick is so awesome, and what he actually thinks of me. This mystery may never be solved.