I did it. Finally told Kristian that I don’t feel the same way that (I have assumed) he feels. I’ve never been in a scenario like this before - usually it’s me getting my heart broken - so of course I now feel like a total jerk. But I’m also so relieved I’ve finally said something; I couldn’t deal with how crappy not telling him was making me feel. Especially because of how much I’m in love/lust/-fatuated with someone else. Horrible mixed up bad situation all around.
Still, now I have one less thing to worry about. And that’s got to be positive.
How do you tell someone who definitely likes you (who you think is nice and a good person) that you really aren’t attracted to them and don’t want to date them? I may have let a situation chug along way too long and allowed things to be potentially quite awkward.
Almost not worth making a post today, except that I promised myself this blog would be an ‘every single day’ affair. Still, hardly anything to write about.
I guess there was the new episode of Supernatural; seeing the Ghostfacers again was nice, but as always the writers time their “filler” episodes terribly; there are so many stories and subplots building up on top of each other in this season, that cutting away from the action for an episode that ultimately did nothing but tell Sam and Dean what they already knew about how lying and keeping secrets can affect relationships was more frustrating than anything else. Plus, ripping apart one of the few remaining stable/constant elements of the Supernatural universe by splitting up Harry and Ed like they did… Ugh. Seriously, all the boys really have now apart from each other is Cas. And, well, Crowley. Which just shows how dwindled their support network has truly become.
Oh, and I’ve maybe possibly decided on what to study at uni, and which uni to go to. I think XD
My sleep schedule is so out of whack right now; Today I was awake until at least 8:00 in the morning, then slept until almost 5pm.
I know I won’t sleep overnight at the moment, because I’ve been falling asleep progressively later (into the next day) and then waking up further into the evening, for about a week. So I think my best bet is gonna be to tonight stay up as long into Wednesday as I can, and then crash out and (hopefully) sleep through until Thursday morning.